after hemming and hawing for a few weeks now, i finally went and got inked, not once but twice.  the minimum for a small tattoo in nyc is crazy (all the places i looked at said $100), so i figured, aww, hell with it, let’s get two, and i’d say it paid off well enough.  the people at the parlour were so friendly and nice, and the guy was really good — there was hardly any pain; it felt irritating at most, ticklish at parts; but, all in all, it was pretty much pain-free, and i’m very happy with how both turned out.

on my left wrist is a map of the cities i visited in japan last summer, and on the right is the logo nell used in the trace.  one day, i might add “counting pulses” next to it because “counting pulses” is actually the original nell tattoo i planned on getting on my wrist.  :3

i know it hurts you when i fucking shiver
well, trust me —
i was such a strong believer
but what’s the point of searching for that halo?
my eyes are blinded,
and my heart is shallow

it’s getting worse and worse as i think deeper
it’s just like staring at a burning river
well, now, it’s time to stop —
just pull the trigger

i want to end it all.
i want it over.

nell, “haven”

i’m trying to write out my thoughts about this mini, except i’m failing because i’m still reeling from “haven.”

i know it’s a dark cave,
and,
even though it’s far from heaven,
maybe
this could be my haven


don’t cry over me

nell, “haven”

새로워질 너를 믿어
조용히 두 눈을 감고 늘 꿈꿔왔던
너를 그려
믿어왔었던 모든게
아무것도 아닌게 될까
그렇게 될까봐 두려워

just breathe in and breathe out
your dreams with me

i’m in the ocean of light
내 꿈이 숨을 쉰다
눈부신 빛의 파도 그속에서
새롭게 태어나고 있어
i’m in the ocean of light
내 꿈이 춤을 춘다
거대한 빛의 파도 그속에서
난 다시 태어나고 있어
in the ocean of light

nell, “ocean of light”

believe in yourself who’ll be made new
quietly, close your eyes,
and picture the you you’ve always dreamed of
“will all the things i believed turn out to be nothing?”
you’re afraid that’s what will happen

just breathe in and breathe out
your dreams with me

i’m in the ocean of light
my dreams are breathing
in the waves of blinding light
they’re being born anew

i’m in the ocean of light
my dreams are dancing
in those waves of enormous light
i’m being born again
in the ocean of light

finally!  :3  

(i like this pv — it’s fun and fresh (and, heh, jong-wan’s hair) — and i love the drums in this song.  more on the song later after i’ve got the whole album, but the pv gets a thumbs up.)

this is a good start for a monday, even if aladin shipping has gotten a little absurd.  (lame.  i wanted the shinhwa album, too, or casker’s 6th.)  i’ve had good experiences with aladin, though, so i wasn’t so inclined to go back to yesasia this time, but i’ll be looking for other ways to buy cds from korea now.  i wish i bought enough to purchase them in bulk!

whee, so we have a release date + nice concept art + knowledge that they’re done filming the pv (quick trans of jung-hoon’s tweet:  ”we safely finished filming the music video for our new track.  hehe”)— one week to go, so when can i preorder this?  been checking aladin literally every day this past week …

[img capped from nellhouse]

last final in one-and-a-half hours:  i can’t wait to come home and sleep.  and then i get to focus on writing full-time.  :3

01.  come on, nell, blow me away, yeah?

02.  woollim, if you could release a dvd of the christmas concert (that you clearly recorded), that’d be rad, thanks.

aausten